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It's just so weird how much ya actually want to go home when you can't.

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Gage's girlfriend is fucking cute as hell.

k2

I tried k-2 today. That shit it fucked up! I only took like four or five hits off the bong and I freaked out. I had hallucinations. Never fucking doing that again! I was so fucking scared. I totally thought I died, like I don't know how to explain it, but I don't recomend(how ever its spelled) trying that stuff. ever. I hugged the toilet for like an hour. YUCK!

Bummed

My mom had Sam and her friend pack up all the stuff in my room. Sam has moved into my room and my mom moved out of the basement into Sam's room. Why am I such a fuck up?
I can honestly say that if I was 100% sure I would actually die this time I would off myself.
It just hurts so bad not having an actual place to call home.
I can't stay at Gage's house forever. They are going to get sick of me if they aren't already. I'm basically just mooching off him considering I'm not bringing any money in.
My life is far beyond repair. What the fuck am I still doing here. Honestly, we all know I'm not going to amount to anything. I'm just a waist of air. like Jason always said to me. If him and my mom never got married I would be cuddled up in my warm bed right now. I guess I'm just looking for someone to blame my problems on. I know it'sall my fault, but I'd like to pretend that it's not.
Kbye.

Hooplah!

It's been kinda awkward waking up in this house for like the past week. We have never talked about how long I can stay here for, and I don't think Gage's girl likes me to much. I wish that her son wasn't in daycare that way he could stay here with my while they are at work. It's kinda lonely. Me being here all day makes it like 40937498x's more awkward when they get home from work.
I got cought buying stuff with someone elses credit card. Ha, I might go to jail. I guess that's what I get. I'm so stupid. Oh well, I seriously don't care anymore. That's the problem though I guess.
I've been feeling all extra heart broken again. This isn't fair. I always talk about how stuff isn't fair... I'mso stupid.
I kinda want to go home. I think I've pretty much lost all hope in that happening /:
I want a boyfriend.
TO BAD I LOOK LIKE A DYKE!
Fuck.
WHat was I thinking when I cut my hair?
Well I know what I was thinking cause I blogged about it.
Ha, I'm too lame.
I'm trying to convince Gage to go to Lansing this weekend, maybe my aunt Kelley will let me stay with her for a few.
My birthday is in 13 days.
To fucking bad I have to pay $250.
I have two more days to get that money.
FUCK THAT. If I ghad that kind of money I wouldn't be in this mess!
duh!
God damn. Seriously.
Right now I could really use a friend.